Change of Plans & SCREAM NEWS!!Change of Plans & SCREAM NEWS!!What’s up?! It’s been a little while since my last post. I just wanted to update you guys on a few things-mainly the fact that I have kind of changed my plans for this website (somewhat), some things that have happened lately, and fantastic news because I rewatched Scream 1996 a few nights ago!! ;)
First, I’d kind of like to give an update on things that have been happening since my latest entries. To be honest, it’s nothing much, but it’s always so good to share positive updates! I’ve mostly been playing fun new games with my birdie, hanging out and going on motorcycle rides with my dad, and coming back from a literal trip down memory lane. Things have been really great for me! I’ve been in a much happier headspace and I’m just really enjoying life rn! I have so much more motivation to do things like engage in creative writing and work on my website. ~
Speaking of my website, I would like to announce that I am going to temporarily postpone the “overhaul” of my website. After a lot of pondering, I’ve come to think that I really don’t think I’m ready to change things up… at least not yet. I’ve been thinking about it a lot and, honestly, I’m a little ashamed of how little I actually create. I hate having no confidence in my artistic skills (digital or traditional lmao) and I hate that I haven’t actually uploaded fanfiction in over a year. I’m done making excuses like blaming writer’s block or thinking I’m “not good enough” to draw my own stuff. I think I need some time just to focus on creating stuff, putting myself out there, and fully indulging in my interests. As I said, I am going to eventually make these changes-it will happen, just not yet.
And don’t get me wrong; I am still going to commission stuff. I do want to draw more of my own artwork, but I also have enough self awareness to know that I’m not really at the skill level to draw my own shrine cover photos and stuff (writing is more of my strong suit, anyways). That being said, though, I kind of want to keep commissions limited to cover photos and challenge myself to draw new stuff. I’ll never get better unless I keep trying; even if I really hate what my art currently looks like.
And now… the exciting part!! As I’ve said, I finally got around to rewatching Scream! To be honest, I’ve never really realized it before, but there is such a beauty in revisiting media. Like, when I first watched Scream, I didn’t really appreciate it as much as I have now realized I could. I didn’t really care about it mostly because I already knew who the killers were going in (and that there were two). I made my OC and then just sort of abandoned the franchise. Now that I’ve rewatched it and seriously paid close attention to dialogue and characterization, I’ve really gained a new appreciation for it.
Starting with what you all already know… I’m pretty into Stuilly these days. It had a pretty crazy start (literally a dream lmao) and, given the nature of the ship in of itself, has been a wild ride. Even though it is an M/M pairing, I’ve found myself really enjoying it. I really dig the power imbalance between both the two and the overall TOXICITY!!! Like, I see so many people writing fluff “I love you so much” scenarios and I’m just (respectfully, on the inside) like naurrr! I think the iconic final scene really highlights their dynamic best despite the fact that the two were clearly pretty unstable in the moment. For instance, the fact that Billy kept stabbing Stu even after he begged for him to stop, Billy’s screaming at Stu, and the fact that Stu hadn’t even known that Billy had a motive aside from being in it for fun. I’ve even seen a number of fans speculate that Billy was contemplating killing Stu alongside Sidney! While I don’t necessarily feel like going on tirades about it here, I definitely think that the two characters had a very toxic and perhaps even one-sided (on Stu’s behalf) relationship. I do want to expand a lot more on my thoughts and personal interpretations once I get around to setting up the Stuilly shrine, though.
That aside, boy do I have news for you guys!! I’m back with EVEN MORE husbando brainrot! I really never thought that I’d have any other f/os after (re)discovering William and Vanessa, but here we are. Holy cow. I actually can’t believe that I’ve gone, like, a year and a half without thinking about anything or anyone besides from the FNaF Movie and its characters… And even that’s crazy because a lot of people apparently think the movie sucks anyways.
But rewatching Scream has made me really fall in love with Stu Macher. Like, I am down really bad. Considering the movie’s canon, I know damn well that I’d likely end up like Casey and Tatum, BUUUUT just hear me out for like one second. I feel like, under the right circumstances, things could work out… albeit in a toxic, fucked up way because that’s the kind of person he is (ask Casey, Stu’s ex girlfriend that he and Billy killed because she dared break up with him). I like that idea a lot.
The point is, though, I have really fallen in love with Stu’s whole character. For starters, he is loyal as hell and literally would kill for whoever he is in love with (who, in canon, would be Billy… but we are using our imagination here). He is also sensitive, impressionable, crazy, and downright fucking psychotic. Like, the whole time I rewatched Scream, all I could think about is how this dude is literally the perfect yandere.
As a character, Stu has so much complexity and duality. And it’s so interesting to me because I feel like he just seems so easy to overlook as either his comic relief persona or Billy’s lackey. However, when you look just a little deeper and really, really pay attention to his character, you start to see what kind of a person Stu really is. On one hand, he’s a sadistic fucking monster who is literally just in it for fun and for Billy’s approval. That being said, one could even argue that he’s worse than Billy! On the other, he’s… almost kind of a victim. Strong emphasis on the “almost”. I am most definitely not trying to “aww poor baby” Stu or woobify him-no!! What I am trying to say, though, is that, even though he’s an awful and irredeemable person, I also recognize that Billy manipulated him. Hell, Stu himself realized this after Billy stabbed him as hard and as many times as he did.
To be honest, I see Stu as something of a mix of a teetering-on-the-edge just waiting to burst psycho (which he was, which Billy saw and took full advantage of) and somebody who very honestly is “far too sensitive”. I feel like this is what gives him so much just INSANE depth as a character. I just find it so fascinating that he could simultaneously be so cruel and sadistic yet so trusting and deeply in love with his “best friend”-all while being completely in the dark that he’s just as disposable and worthless as Sidney, or Tatum, or any of the others.
Not only that, but the infamous note on Stu’s fridge implies that he could very well have absent and/or neglectful parents. If you haven’t seen the movie, the note reads “Hi Stu, sorry we missed you today. We’ll be home Sunday x Be good! Love Mom + Dad. PS Feed the dog”. To be honest, with the way the note is written, I wouldn’t doubt that Stu’s parents regularly take off without him; especially for multiple days, as the note says “Sunday” and not “tomorrow”. Of course, there is always the possibility that the writers were just improvising so that the party could happen, but it just feels way too intentional. Besides, I feel like this might even be part of why, if not the full reason, that Stu found himself under such influence in the first place. I also feel like it could potentially serve as an explanation for his attention-seeking behavior in general. I mean, think about it; you’re eighteen years old, raised by parents who likely take off regularly… who do you really have to turn to? While I’m not excusing his atrocities or the evil that was already budding within him before Billy came along, I do think this upbringing could have played a pivotal role in becoming the type of person he had.
… Holy cow, I’ve really rambled, haven’t I!? I still have a lot more to say, but I’ll save it for the upcoming shrine. You get the point, though; I’ve fallen into a new obsession with a new character. I’m about as shocked as anybody because, like I said, I’ve just been regurgitating and regurgitating the FNaF movie for like the past year. But, ughh, I just absolutely need him. NEEEEEEED!!!!
It’s so crazy that he only reached husbando status a whole YEAR after seeing the movie for the first time. All this time I’ve had such a perfect yandere right under my nose… ;)
Okay, aside from Stu, though, I kind of am having feelings for another character. I know, you’re probably sick of reading me passionately gush about fictional characters, but this is my blog. :P
Anyways, I’ve rediscovered my “connection” to Sidney Prescott-quoted because I’m not exactly sure about my feelings yet!! I just know that I feel really strongly about her. Let me explain myself; she has been through many of the same exact things as I have. I resonated with her so much in losing her mom (who was also promiscuous), being sexually manipulated and exploited by Billy, and her struggles with sexually opening up to him in the first place. Like, I really love her so so much. I just don’t know if it’s a romantic kind of love or “wow, she’s like me fr and I admire her” sort of feeling.
As I said, I still need to sort out my feelings for her, but I can see myself loving her in a Vanessa sort-of-way if it’s romantic. By that, I mean I can see it being a more wholesome pairing than my yandere crap with William, Vanny, and now Stu. Like with Vanessa, I feel like there would be a lot of genuine comfort and trust in the relationship. I can see it being the sort of relationship I’d actually want in real life because, for one, I’m a lot more interested in dating women than men irl, and, for two, I’d never EVER actually date anyone like the previously named three characters. Similarly, I see Vanessa as more of the “ideal soulmate I’d want irl” kind of relationship unlike the spicy fantasies with the husbandos. You get what I’m saying. I really need more time to kind of mull over my feelings for her and decide what they really are, but it’s definitely there.
Anywaaaays, that’s it for now! As I previously mentioned, I will NOT be remodeling or rebranding my site for at least awhile. I am going to be working on a burning very toxic Yandere!Stu/Fem!Reader fanfic idea I have, a Stu husbando shrine, and a Stuilly shrine as well. ;) I also plan on rewatching the Nightmare on Elm Street series (childhood fav) and REALLY wanna watch Jennifer’s Body and Saw!!
Before I go, check out my new Stuilly keychain!~
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Peace!!